Diet?! What the heck does that mean?!

Weigh In time is coming soon. It's funny cause I'm not even worried about that. I'm just tired of feeling fat and seeing my self as it too. In reality cherubness has pushed me over the edge. I'm tired of feeling like this food baby in front of me. I'm tired of feeling ashamed. I'm tired of procrastinating the weight loss and dieting and all that stuff. So I'm mentally ready to lose the weight. Now comes the hard part. I don't wanna starve myself. I wanna eat good. I'm not a fricken gerbil or vegimonster. I like meat. It's delicious. I really have to cut back on portioning that means and in the first few weeks thats really difficult to do. So I start on my way now. I don't know what is going to happen but I hope good things. I'm ready. Ready to look good and feel good. I really am.